Does crying make you weaker?
TLDR; (stands for Too Long Don't Read)
Each tear is the memory of a beautiful experience.
Hi, this is my first Medium post. I'm a huge fan of all the writers at Medium. I try reading an article before I sleep, it feels fantastic.
I used to use tears so that I could trick my mother into listening to me whenever I had to go to a party, or I was home late. We would go out for movies every Sunday-few funny, few emotional. But nothing would make me cry. I have an aunt, who cried for this Hindi movie, which is apparently one of the funniest Bollywood movies just because it had a scene of the child being kidnapped. We've grown up laughing at my aunt's cry for really silly movies. As a child, I thought you look stupid when you cry.
Tears worked in two ways for me. You either use them for attention or for getting things done. Nothing more.
When I grew up a little, I realized crying is a really girly thing to do. I didn't want to look really girly, dressing up, put on tons of makeup, draw too much attention. I never did any of that. And I'd definitely judge someone who did that. Whenever I felt bad or hurt or emotional, I'd hide my tears or just control this weeping sensation. I had to live up to the tough girl image.
I'm in my twenties now. I don't know what exactly happens but a few parts have changed. I read a blog that talks to me, I watch a movie that sees through me, I listen to lyrics that speak to me and I feel tears rolling down my eyes. As opposed to what I used to think, tears make me feel complete. It's like how before you puke you imagine all sorts of things, but once it's done you feel so much better. (I'll try coming up with less ugly analogies for future writings). I have tears not because I'm sad but because I came across something that added more meaning to who I am. I'm crying now because this is the best way to express myself. It's easier because I'm beginning to embrace myself as a woman, as a person more importantly. Tears are now a part of me as opposed to a tool that I would use.
Sometimes, I still turn my face to the other side and act like something is stuck in my eye, and have people around me blow hot air into one eye because they're silly enough to fall for this lame excuse. I guess I'll have to wait for my thirties to be a bit more mature about not hiding my tears.
If you've got tears in your eyes, hit the like button and show the rest of us you're strong enough to not hide your tears. Keep them rolling :')
Just realized, Coldplay has a song about this :p
Love,
Meena
